Sing for Absolution.

Sing for
Absolution

Kellie, 13
22.09
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Date: Aug 27, 2010

Time: 10:58 PM

Madness, just Madness.

Since a lot of the Guides are posting it, I shall post it too~

But also cause I saw Xinyuan's tag on Maoning's blog saying that she is jealous seeing it la.

Hehe.

Can see my nice stack of LBD books there la.

Btw, my birthday is coming.

*WINK*

HAHAHAHAHAHAHHAHAA

Okay la, today was rather cool.

Cause Amelia came back.

Miss her la.

Very funneh leh she, without any notice then come back liao.

BUT THEN.

SHE SAID THAT SHE WILL TRY TO GET CHOY'S SIGNATURE FOR ME.

-runs around the room screaming-

Damn awesome la.

At least the Singapore Athletes will still be here so we can still see them around sometime.

AND GUIDES CHALET.

EAST COAST PARK.

NATIONAL SAILING CENTRE.

I love Guides.

And that chalet outing will be so full of retardness I can't wait~!

WE CAN LIKE ALL JUMP IN THE POOL.

Then....OMG.

What if like a certain National Team will be staying at the house next to ours?

I will go crazy.

Very crazy.

All I want for Christmas is ~~DARRENCHOY~~ my two front teeth~

Date: Aug 24, 2010

Time: 10:29 PM

It's Turtle Day

HAPPY BIRTHDAY KIM JONG WOON!~

Finally, the day has come. Where Jongwoon becomes 26 years young. I'll let the pichas and letter do the talking.

Dearest dearest Jongwoon,

Hello thare Jongwoon. I…really am writing this at the spur of the moment. Well today is your birthday! Actually I was pretty hesitant on writing a letter to you since I would feel it was not sincere enough cause it is in English. You probably won’t be reading this anyway but I want to pretend, that just for a moment that you will read this. And you can understand English of course. Because I am not going to go around finding out how to translate this entire letter into Korean.

This is the first time I am celebrating your birthday. I became an ELF on the 15 October 2009. It was approximately 9.22PM. Funny how I became one actually. It was through the influence of Jingying. My exact words about you were “LOL. Judging by the pictures, I think YeSung is the cutest ley” Ahh, yes. That picture which I was referring to was your debut picture, Yesung. Yes, the one where you had red hair. I thought you looked so irresistibly cute. Although I cannot say that I became an ELF at that moment because at that time, I was just a fan.

An anti fan is a moment, a fan is a time, an ELF is a lifetime.

I really do regret not becoming an ELF in Primary 3, when you guys debuted as Super Junior 05. Although I have to go through all the heart aches for 5 years, I really don’t mind. I consider that with each tear, a myriad of smiles will follow after. Looking at myself now, I have certainly gone a long way from the person I was last time. I feel happy whenever I gain new knowledge about you. I guess it makes me feel more…worthy? It makes me feel more worthy to be your fan, your Sungie. Although I know that in actual fact, it is not how much information one retains that qualifies them to be a fan. It is a feeling. It’s a feeling that you feel in your heart. I guess you’ll know it when you feel it. It’s indescribable.

Although I have had many many biases then have come and gone throughout the months, in the end, it is still you. There is something about you that I just love so much. Sure, you aren’t the most popular member. Sure, you aren’t the most well-build member. Sure, you aren’t the most tallest or the most funny. But in my heart, you are all of those and more. You have been gaining more and more popularity since 4jib has been released. You have awesome AOS. You are 178cm which is already very tall compared to me. Your AB-ness and weirdness makes you funny in your own quirky way. I guess I would probably never ever get to talk to you. Much less marry you (But I’m keeping it on my wishlist teehee). But as I think about it, I am just glad that I am able to watch you from afar. I am glad that I am allowed to love you without anybody restraining me from doing so. So I count my blessings and all in all, I am contented.

I really do hope that you will have the best of birthdays ever. Today, being your 26th birthday. You are one of the oldest in the group. I know you take care of the other boys really well and all. But being more mature is one thing. I wish that you would never ever get rid of your AB-ness and your quirkyness. Because that is just what makes Kim Jong Woon. I am very proud of you Yesung. And maybe you think I have wasted my time on a letter that would probably never ever be read by Yesung. But who said he had to read it? It is my birthday wish from me to him. And it’s the feelings that were put into this letter that matters. At least this makes me even surer of the love I have for him.

Yes, maybe one day I will get out of this fandom. But even as my life goes on and I get STM, I know that you will still be in a special place in my heart. I fear to think about the future of Super Junior, but as they say, “The future can wait”. For now, I’ll just live in the awesome present and smile at the past.

And finally, Jongwoon. I just want you to know that I love you. I have never been ashamed to reveal that my bias was you. You have impact my life in many ways than one. And I am thankful you did because you taught me a lot of things. (Heh, I bet you didn’t know that!) You thought me that it’s okay to be myself. It’s okay to be different. Because in the end, the goodness of it all will just hit people left, right and centre. Thank you, Jongwoon. For making such a great impact in my life. If I had to choose again, you would still be my bias, my Turtle.

I love you.

Always faithful,
Kellie

OKAY, ENOUGH OF WORDS.
I'll let the pictures do the talking.

Oh god, his tiny hands (Y)

The last picture about killed me.

And who could forget how hot he looks in glasses?

Or how awesome he looks in guyliner?

And how his hair just makes him looks hotter

Managing to looks cute and sexy at the same time

And that slight upturned lips

Ahh, once again. Happy Birthday.

Date: Aug 22, 2010

Time: 9:38 PM

30 Days

Day 1 — Your Best Friend

Day 2 — Your Crush

Day 3 — Your Parents

Day 4 — Your Sibling (or closest relative)

Day 5 — Your Dreams

Day 6 — A Stranger

Day 7 — Your Ex-boyfriend/girlfriend/love/crush

Day 8 — Your favorite internet friend

Day 9 — Someone you wish you could meet

Day 10 — Someone you don’t talk to as much as you’d like to

Day 11 — A Deceased person you wish you could talk to

Day 12 — The person you hate most/caused you a lot of pain

Day 13 — Someone you wish could forgive you

Day 14 — Someone you’ve drifted away from

Day 15 — The person you miss the most

Day 16 — Someone that’s not in your state/country

Day 17 — Someone from your childhood

Day 18 — The person that you wish you could be

Day 19 — Someone that pesters your mind—good or bad

Day 20 — The one that broke your heart the hardest

Day 21 — Someone you judged by their first impression

Day 22 — Someone you want to give a second chance to

Day 23 — The last person you kissed

Day 24 — The person that gave you your favorite memory

Day 25 — The person you know that is going through the worst of times

Day 26 — The last person you made a pinky promise to

Day 27 — The friendliest person you knew for only one day

Day 28 — Someone that changed your life

Day 29 — The person that you want tell everything to, but too afraid to

Day 30 — Your reflection in the mirror

I will try this since I need to keep the blog alive.

Day 1 - Your Best Friend

Dear Megan,

Although I do not claim it, but in my heart, you are still my best friend.

And I miss you so much.

I still look back and think of the memories that we created.

Of the cheese cake and the popcorn and the sleepovers.

I know I'll meet you soon.

I LOVE YOU!

Day 2 - Your Crush

Dear Crush,

I had a hard time choosing this person. Since I really do not exactly have a crush now.

So yes, I have chosen you.

I think you are rather stupid.

And dumb.

And egoistic.

So that is why I do not like you anymore.

Goodbye.

Day 3 - Your Parents

Dear Mum,

I have a hard trouble showing my love for you so I hope you won't see this.

I really do appreciate everything you have done for me thus far.

And I love you.

I know you have had a hard time so I hope I can help lessen your load too.

I LOVE YOU MUMMY.

Date: Aug 21, 2010

Time: 10:03 PM

SAIL THE FUNK

HE IS SO COOL HERE. 8D
150TH Post (My YOG process)

TEEHEE.

Maybe I should start to blog again so that people would actually come.

TEEHEEEE

GOING TO ECP FOR CLASS OUTING ON MONDAY.

And guess who is at ECP?

Darren.

Darren Choy.

TEEHEEEEEE

If I do not at least take one picture with an athlete before YOG ends, I would hate myself forever.

TEEHEEE.

AND IF THAT ATHLETE IS CHOY... ohyeah.

That would be heaven.

I'll treasure that picture for life.

Mmmhmm.

Actually I may cry when YOG is over.

It's such an awesome event.

My favourite is secretly taking pictures of hot athletes on the train.

And most of the time, they catch me.

BUT OH TODAY I WAS TAKING A PICTURE OF THIS ATHLETE.

And he looked so sexy when he stuck out his tongue.

Sighhh.

I WANNA GO YOV SO BAD.

Maybe I should really ask Coach Jos about it.

NYEHEHEHHEHEHEHEHE.

OH AND DASRENE SAID THAT MAYBE SHE COULD GET TICKETS FOR ME AND YVETTE FOR CLOSING CEREMONY.

AND MAYBE WE COULD SIT BEHIND THE ATHLETES.

OHYEAH BAYBEH.

I think I am really excited cause I don't really use Captial Letters so excessively.

Hmmmmmmm.

TEEHEE.

I love Andrii Govorov.

Abs man.

Cute smile.

What else can you ask for?

Oh, YOG Swimming was just so awesome.

Federica and I kinda sneaked out to take pictures of athletes during the race.

And like we saw Rainer Ng.

Then cause Federica had a SLR I think

So he thought she was a professional photographer I think

HAHA.

Then he SMILED at the camera.

Then at the last minute, Fede decided not to take a picture (which was sad)

Then he walked away hahaha.

BUT I STILL GOT A PICTURE OF HIM.

Oh YOG Swimming was just full of half naked men and super pretty girls.

Hmph.

Oh and on Friday I went to JP with Xinyuan and Gin.

Just to look at the athletes

Cause a lot of people say that the athletes always go there.

AND THEY WERE RIGHT!

HAHAAHHAHAHAHHAHA

BUT STILL DIDN'T MANAGE TO GET PICHAAAAAAS.

BOOOHOO.

I.NEED.ATHLETES.

Date: Aug 12, 2010

Time: 9:24 PM

I love them so much it scares me sometimes.

PS. Happy Birthday Sunye and Luna ~

Love you two :)

Date: Aug 6, 2010

Time: 11:49 PM

All the times we, had together

Today was National Day celebrations

It was really hectic for me

Cause once I reached school I had to change into Guide Uniform

Then go down and practice for the parade for a while

Then after the parade, we went to change

And then I had to immediately go to the hall

To do YOG Dance for the Sec 3s and 4s

WHILE THE SEC2S WERE IN THE CANTEEN HAVING RECESSS.

Okay, so then right after that was the Mass Dance for the Sec 1s and 2s.

So I didn't have recess at all.

Okay, hunger pangs~

After Mass Dance C3 House Leaders went to change into class tee

But before that....

cr: Alina's FB

Hehe~

It's pretty ain't it.

Went back to the hall to see the concert.

Went high when singing the NDP songs.

But as 2C3 stood there, arms around each other

As we jumped up and down to "Together We Make A Difference"

I looked at all the happy faces around me

And I started to feel sad and got teary

This thing cannot last forever.

I thought.

And we only have around 2 more months with each other.

And then 2C3 2010 won't exist anymore.

I'm happy that we won Best Flag though.

Date: Aug 3, 2010

Time: 8:50 AM

Dead?

Sorry I have not been blogging.

Using LJ now.

But I'll continue to post here

Just that LJ is my fangirling "blog"

And I'll prolly post the same stuff here as I post there.

Minus the spazzing.

And the weirdness.

And the awesome GIFs.

Boohoo.

Okay, BoA is awesome.

MAI LJ :D

Sing for Absolution
SEE THE CHILD Kellie, 13 22.09 Lives by FAITH and not by SIGHT Beloved Child of Abba FB Plurk MSN Twitter SHOUT YOUR PRAISES Music Playlist at MixPod.com YOU'LL COME 2C3'10 Adeline Candice Chun Yee Gauri Gloria Fang Qi Hannah Jing Ying Joyce Mao Ning Rachel Siew Meng Shu Hui Stephanie Tracy Wen Hui Xin Yuan Bernice Darren Dasrene Guides Keith Yvette New Creation Church Archives October 2009 November 2009 December 2009 January 2010 February 2010 March 2010 April 2010 May 2010 June 2010 July 2010 August 2010 September 2010 November 2010 Credits Layout: Karma Police Host: Blogger Basecodes © the bikini boy	Date: Aug 27, 2010 Time: 10:58 PM Madness, just Madness. Since a lot of the Guides are posting it, I shall post it too~ But also cause I saw Xinyuan's tag on Maoning's blog saying that she is jealous seeing it la. Hehe. Can see my nice stack of LBD books there la. Btw, my birthday is coming. WINK HAHAHAHAHAHAHHAHAA Okay la, today was rather cool. Cause Amelia came back. Miss her la. Very funneh leh she, without any notice then come back liao. BUT THEN. SHE SAID THAT SHE WILL TRY TO GET CHOY'S SIGNATURE FOR ME. -runs around the room screaming- Damn awesome la. At least the Singapore Athletes will still be here so we can still see them around sometime. AND GUIDES CHALET. EAST COAST PARK. NATIONAL SAILING CENTRE. I love Guides. And that chalet outing will be so full of retardness I can't wait~! WE CAN LIKE ALL JUMP IN THE POOL. Then....OMG. What if like a certain National Team will be staying at the house next to ours? I will go crazy. Very crazy. All I want for Christmas is ~~DARRENCHOY~~ my two front teeth~ Date: Aug 24, 2010 Time: 10:29 PM It's Turtle Day HAPPY BIRTHDAY KIM JONG WOON!~ Finally, the day has come. Where Jongwoon becomes 26 years young. I'll let the pichas and letter do the talking. Dearest dearest Jongwoon, Hello thare Jongwoon. I…really am writing this at the spur of the moment. Well today is your birthday! Actually I was pretty hesitant on writing a letter to you since I would feel it was not sincere enough cause it is in English. You probably won’t be reading this anyway but I want to pretend, that just for a moment that you will read this. And you can understand English of course. Because I am not going to go around finding out how to translate this entire letter into Korean. This is the first time I am celebrating your birthday. I became an ELF on the 15 October 2009. It was approximately 9.22PM. Funny how I became one actually. It was through the influence of Jingying. My exact words about you were “LOL. Judging by the pictures, I think YeSung is the cutest ley” Ahh, yes. That picture which I was referring to was your debut picture, Yesung. Yes, the one where you had red hair. I thought you looked so irresistibly cute. Although I cannot say that I became an ELF at that moment because at that time, I was just a fan. An anti fan is a moment, a fan is a time, an ELF is a lifetime. I really do regret not becoming an ELF in Primary 3, when you guys debuted as Super Junior 05. Although I have to go through all the heart aches for 5 years, I really don’t mind. I consider that with each tear, a myriad of smiles will follow after. Looking at myself now, I have certainly gone a long way from the person I was last time. I feel happy whenever I gain new knowledge about you. I guess it makes me feel more…worthy? It makes me feel more worthy to be your fan, your Sungie. Although I know that in actual fact, it is not how much information one retains that qualifies them to be a fan. It is a feeling. It’s a feeling that you feel in your heart. I guess you’ll know it when you feel it. It’s indescribable. Although I have had many many biases then have come and gone throughout the months, in the end, it is still you. There is something about you that I just love so much. Sure, you aren’t the most popular member. Sure, you aren’t the most well-build member. Sure, you aren’t the most tallest or the most funny. But in my heart, you are all of those and more. You have been gaining more and more popularity since 4jib has been released. You have awesome AOS. You are 178cm which is already very tall compared to me. Your AB-ness and weirdness makes you funny in your own quirky way. I guess I would probably never ever get to talk to you. Much less marry you (But I’m keeping it on my wishlist teehee). But as I think about it, I am just glad that I am able to watch you from afar. I am glad that I am allowed to love you without anybody restraining me from doing so. So I count my blessings and all in all, I am contented. I really do hope that you will have the best of birthdays ever. Today, being your 26th birthday. You are one of the oldest in the group. I know you take care of the other boys really well and all. But being more mature is one thing. I wish that you would never ever get rid of your AB-ness and your quirkyness. Because that is just what makes Kim Jong Woon. I am very proud of you Yesung. And maybe you think I have wasted my time on a letter that would probably never ever be read by Yesung. But who said he had to read it? It is my birthday wish from me to him. And it’s the feelings that were put into this letter that matters. At least this makes me even surer of the love I have for him. Yes, maybe one day I will get out of this fandom. But even as my life goes on and I get STM, I know that you will still be in a special place in my heart. I fear to think about the future of Super Junior, but as they say, “The future can wait”. For now, I’ll just live in the awesome present and smile at the past. And finally, Jongwoon. I just want you to know that I love you. I have never been ashamed to reveal that my bias was you. You have impact my life in many ways than one. And I am thankful you did because you taught me a lot of things. (Heh, I bet you didn’t know that!) You thought me that it’s okay to be myself. It’s okay to be different. Because in the end, the goodness of it all will just hit people left, right and centre. Thank you, Jongwoon. For making such a great impact in my life. If I had to choose again, you would still be my bias, my Turtle. I love you. Always faithful, Kellie OKAY, ENOUGH OF WORDS. I'll let the pictures do the talking. Oh god, his tiny hands (Y) The last picture about killed me. And who could forget how hot he looks in glasses? Or how awesome he looks in guyliner? And how his hair just makes him looks hotter Managing to looks cute and sexy at the same time And that slight upturned lips Ahh, once again. Happy Birthday. Date: Aug 22, 2010 Time: 9:38 PM 30 Days Day 1 — Your Best Friend Day 2 — Your Crush Day 3 — Your Parents Day 4 — Your Sibling (or closest relative) Day 5 — Your Dreams Day 6 — A Stranger Day 7 — Your Ex-boyfriend/girlfriend/love/crush Day 8 — Your favorite internet friend Day 9 — Someone you wish you could meet Day 10 — Someone you don’t talk to as much as you’d like to Day 11 — A Deceased person you wish you could talk to Day 12 — The person you hate most/caused you a lot of pain Day 13 — Someone you wish could forgive you Day 14 — Someone you’ve drifted away from Day 15 — The person you miss the most Day 16 — Someone that’s not in your state/country Day 17 — Someone from your childhood Day 18 — The person that you wish you could be Day 19 — Someone that pesters your mind—good or bad Day 20 — The one that broke your heart the hardest Day 21 — Someone you judged by their first impression Day 22 — Someone you want to give a second chance to Day 23 — The last person you kissed Day 24 — The person that gave you your favorite memory Day 25 — The person you know that is going through the worst of times Day 26 — The last person you made a pinky promise to Day 27 — The friendliest person you knew for only one day Day 28 — Someone that changed your life Day 29 — The person that you want tell everything to, but too afraid to Day 30 — Your reflection in the mirror I will try this since I need to keep the blog alive. Day 1 - Your Best Friend Dear Megan, Although I do not claim it, but in my heart, you are still my best friend. And I miss you so much. I still look back and think of the memories that we created. Of the cheese cake and the popcorn and the sleepovers. I know I'll meet you soon. I LOVE YOU! Day 2 - Your Crush Dear Crush, I had a hard time choosing this person. Since I really do not exactly have a crush now. So yes, I have chosen you. I think you are rather stupid. And dumb. And egoistic. So that is why I do not like you anymore. Goodbye. Day 3 - Your Parents Dear Mum, I have a hard trouble showing my love for you so I hope you won't see this. I really do appreciate everything you have done for me thus far. And I love you. I know you have had a hard time so I hope I can help lessen your load too. I LOVE YOU MUMMY. Date: Aug 21, 2010 Time: 10:03 PM SAIL THE FUNK HE IS SO COOL HERE. 8D 150TH Post (My YOG process) TEEHEE. TEEHEE. Maybe I should start to blog again so that people would actually come. TEEHEEEE GOING TO ECP FOR CLASS OUTING ON MONDAY. And guess who is at ECP? Darren. Darren Choy. TEEHEEEEEE If I do not at least take one picture with an athlete before YOG ends, I would hate myself forever. TEEHEEE. AND IF THAT ATHLETE IS CHOY... ohyeah. That would be heaven. I'll treasure that picture for life. Mmmhmm. Actually I may cry when YOG is over. It's such an awesome event. My favourite is secretly taking pictures of hot athletes on the train. And most of the time, they catch me. BUT OH TODAY I WAS TAKING A PICTURE OF THIS ATHLETE. And he looked so sexy when he stuck out his tongue. Sighhh. I WANNA GO YOV SO BAD. Maybe I should really ask Coach Jos about it. NYEHEHEHHEHEHEHEHE. OH AND DASRENE SAID THAT MAYBE SHE COULD GET TICKETS FOR ME AND YVETTE FOR CLOSING CEREMONY. AND MAYBE WE COULD SIT BEHIND THE ATHLETES. OHYEAH BAYBEH. I think I am really excited cause I don't really use Captial Letters so excessively. Hmmmmmmm. TEEHEE. I love Andrii Govorov. Abs man. Cute smile. What else can you ask for? Oh, YOG Swimming was just so awesome. Federica and I kinda sneaked out to take pictures of athletes during the race. And like we saw Rainer Ng. Then cause Federica had a SLR I think So he thought she was a professional photographer I think HAHA. Then he SMILED at the camera. Then at the last minute, Fede decided not to take a picture (which was sad) Then he walked away hahaha. BUT I STILL GOT A PICTURE OF HIM. Oh YOG Swimming was just full of half naked men and super pretty girls. Hmph. Oh and on Friday I went to JP with Xinyuan and Gin. Just to look at the athletes Cause a lot of people say that the athletes always go there. AND THEY WERE RIGHT! HAHAAHHAHAHAHHAHA BUT STILL DIDN'T MANAGE TO GET PICHAAAAAAS. BOOOHOO. I.NEED.ATHLETES. Date: Aug 12, 2010 Time: 9:24 PM I love them so much it scares me sometimes. PS. Happy Birthday Sunye and Luna ~ Love you two :) Date: Aug 6, 2010 Time: 11:49 PM All the times we, had together Today was National Day celebrations It was really hectic for me Cause once I reached school I had to change into Guide Uniform Then go down and practice for the parade for a while Then after the parade, we went to change And then I had to immediately go to the hall To do YOG Dance for the Sec 3s and 4s WHILE THE SEC2S WERE IN THE CANTEEN HAVING RECESSS. Okay, so then right after that was the Mass Dance for the Sec 1s and 2s. So I didn't have recess at all. Okay, hunger pangs~ After Mass Dance C3 House Leaders went to change into class tee But before that.... cr: Alina's FB Hehe~ It's pretty ain't it. Went back to the hall to see the concert. Went high when singing the NDP songs. But as 2C3 stood there, arms around each other As we jumped up and down to "Together We Make A Difference" I looked at all the happy faces around me And I started to feel sad and got teary This thing cannot last forever. I thought. And we only have around 2 more months with each other. And then 2C3 2010 won't exist anymore. I'm happy that we won Best Flag though. Date: Aug 3, 2010 Time: 8:50 AM Dead? Sorry I have not been blogging. Using LJ now. But I'll continue to post here Just that LJ is my fangirling "blog" And I'll prolly post the same stuff here as I post there. Minus the spazzing. And the weirdness. And the awesome GIFs. Boohoo. Okay, BoA is awesome. MAI LJ :D